I want to die…
This post is from the defunct blog “Dying Church”
No, that's not a suicidal cry. Well, it is in reference to the flesh, I guess. As Christians we all want to be what God wants us to be. Even as the earth does, we long for the day when we will become what we were truly intended to be. For now we're in this "in between state"; the state of who we already are, and who were still becoming. In this state, we must make a daily choice, to die. Over and over again, I must choose, not my will, but yours be done. There is no time when this is easy, and I've lived long enough to realize, be careful if it's seems easy, because "pride comes before a fall." But herein lies the hope, the point isn't just to die or in dying, the point is in what is made possible if we choose to die. And the reality is simple, through Christ, death leads to life. Life, right here and now. Even as a seed must die to bear fruit, so we too must choose to die, not just to do it and win that battle, but because it's through that death that the resurrection of the new you comes. It's through that death that we remain attached to the life giving vine. It's through that death that our master bears fruit in us and through us. It's through the experience of the death of ouselves, of our flesh, that we experience the resurrection, the truth of God's Kingdom, here and now. And so, even as Jesus endured the cross because of the joy set before him, we endure death, because of the joy set before us; Kingdom life!