Sitting here at Heathrow counting the minutes until my plane leaves. Can't wait to see my family again.
Leaving Dad was somehow easier this time. I think I've left him so many times, each time thinking it would be the last. Someday it will be; maybe it was today. It's somehow gotten easier.
I was looking at him last night. Hard to believe that this is the man whose shoulders I climbed to jump into the lake. Hard to believe that he once knew how to drive a car with a trailer attached and to do so many things that amazed me as a child. Hard to believe so many things about him. For a minute last night I was angry at him for how he has hurt our family. Stuff that you think is buried or not even there rises to the surface and surprises.
I realized last night that for all of this, I still have it easier than many. My Dad still recognizes me. He is still home. I'll take blessings wherever I can find them.
In this all, I'm trying to learn how to honor my father.
Being away has been good, but going home is much better. One day I want to bring Charlene here and really have a good time. I hope to return in the Fall to check in again, this time with a brother, but I swear one day I'm returning just to have fun. Between now and then there will be other visits to check in and one day a funeral.
But one day I'll come for fun.
i hope you gave your dad a big huge hug!!! before leaving buddy... :o) you may not think that he will remember this precious moment between you and him bonding like father like son....but he definitely will remember....believe me... that is for sure!!!
cause it will be a few more months or sometime next year depending on your hectic schedule before you can see your lovable dad again.....
he is definitely going to miss you buddy...that is definitely a 100% guaranteed...
have a safe trip coming home....my prayers are with you.....see you soon.....
I just want to say welcome back and thanks for the car while you were away. I hope the drop off arrangements weren't too much of a hassle. It was nice to have a second car for the week. It was even nicer that it was standard. It's been a long time, and I like to drive standard "oh so much". I have to say after seven years or so, I never stalled, not even once. Lots of fun, thanks so much!