I'm done for 2003. I've preached my last sermon. I attend Christmas Eve service, but that's it. I'm so done.
I need the break. Lately, I've been losing energy. I've become a bit more unfocused. I think some time doing nothing will be good for me. Tomorrow, Charlene and I celebrate 13 years of marriage. It's gone very fast. Spending some time with her and with the family are going to be good.
Sometimes I dream of making a radical break in my life. I'd love to do more reading and writing. I'd love to be involved in new forms of ministry and to abandon some of the baggage of modern ministry.
At the same time, I don't want to get ahead of myself. It's not time yet. When it is, I'll move. As frustrated as I am with some of the vestiges of modern ministry, there's so much about Richview that I love.
God's doing inner work in my life, and that's not always easy. I'm sometimes tempted to change my external circumstances, but those aren't as much the issue. I have a feeling that I need to spend some time listening to God and processing what he's been teaching me rather than just changing the stuff around me. I hope I'll get a chance to do some of that over the next couple of weeks. I'm glad for the break.
Just don't be rash and be faithful and content.
Thanks for sharing that Daryl. For what it's worth, you've put into words some of my own feelings/thoughts. In the language of this season, perhaps your "system" is struggling to handle the life within you. I'll pray that you'll carve out time to process and ponder that life in the next few days.
you're not alone my friend...