Saddest blog post I've read

This post is from the defunct blog "Dying Church"

From Dead Youthpastor Walking:

bye kids. tired of church and its abuse of people's lives. tired of God and what he allows his commissioned followers to do in his beloved son's name. tired of bad dreams and newsletter scraps from churches gone by. tired of compliance-based "christians" selling real estate in heaven to which they don't have the deed. tired of finding myself fighting back tears during worship, not because of what Christ did for me, but because of whatever flashback hits me triggered by a hymn, a verse, or the way someone looks at me. tired of being a failure in the eyes of so many. tired of the quiet dark speculating time during the night when i consider whether it was a mistake to leave youth ministry. tired of preaching to the choir and stroking ego's as a means to an end that i'm not that sure of myself. tired of hailing a new class of "emerging" celebrities. tired of pretending things are ok. tired of apologizing in my sleep to hundreds of former youth across the country for being part of the machine that is truly full of sh**.

and tired of the church as it stands. -- when God wants me back he can damned well ask.

i do believe this is my last post. bye. -- DYP

Via John Frye

Comments

[Kim]

I was tracking with him until he swore to make his point.

[dan]

I am still tracking with him - even though he swore. This is a broken, beaten saint who has been bashed, bruised and battered from within. What a shame... This saint is wounded deeply - perhaps too deeply. Because he, like so many of us, put his hope and faith more in God's critters than in God Himself. He is blaming God for the work of God's creation - men! I have felt like this saint many times - yet I remain a follower of Jesus... perhaps this is because I've learned that, as this saint points out, many of God's followers indeed ARE full of SH**, though God certainly is not. Many of God's followers ARE faithLESS - though God is not. Many of God's followers really DON'T give a damn - but God does! Always has and always will. Someday the church is going to wake up and find itself totally alone...............

[Kim]

Reading this passage my heart went out for this loving saint of God. I Am a young youth minister myself. I know some times the road gets rough, we must trust in the Lord with all our heart and lean Not on our own understanding and in All our ways we must acknowledge God. I feel the need to pray for you, I feel your situation goes beyond the church doors. God is faithful and where sin is grace abound so much more. We truily are living in the last days and God is calling is people into safety before the coming of Christ. I might not know who you are but the Holy Spirit dose,the Bible tells me that God sent his word and it healed. Know this that you have not labored in vain and that God has'nt given us a spirit of fear but of love, peace and a sound mind. The greater one lives in you, greater is He that is in you and me than he that is in the world. You have to know just because we are in Christ that dose'nt mean that we are'nt going to go threw persecution, Many are the afflictions of the righteous but God delivers us out of them All. Ephesians 3:14 For this reason I bow my knees to the Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, from whom the whole family in heaven and the earth is named, that He would grant you, according to the riches of His glory, to be strengthened with might through His Spirit in the inner man, that Christ may dwell in your heart through Faith;that you, being rooted and grounded in Love, may be able to comprehend with all the saints what is the width and length and depth and height to know the Love of Christ which passes knowledge; that you may be filled with all fullness ot God. Now to Him who is able to do exceedingly abundantly above all that we ask or think, according to the power that works in us, to Him be glory in the church by Christ Jesus to all generations, forever and ever. Amen. NKJV

[stephen]

What hurts the most, do you think: the wound, or knowing that the wound was inflicted by family? It's becoming less and less safe for those who preach the Gospel of the Kingdom of God, because religion has gained control. Even the world is friendlier to the true Gospel than religionists are.

[neal w.]

How did that guy get inside my head? The only way I knew it wasn't me who wrote it is that I'm a senior minister, not youth. I'm just done.